When Michael and I decided we wanted to start trying for a baby, I was so excited. In my mind, I saw plus signs and tiny little baby onesies, and life was golden...
And then I got pregnant. And I realized there is so much more to it than fun planning and sweet baby kicks. I've had a real love/hate relationship with pregnancy so far, but despite all the bad, I've really become quite attached to carrying my girl around in my belly. There's just a fewwww things I wish I would have known before she came to be!
1. It is SO hard to mom while pregnant.
Pregnant me is NOT the put together parent I once was. She can't sleep at night. She can't wake up in the morning because she's so drowsy. There have been days where Ry has had to come in my bedroom in the mornings and say, "Hey Courtney, I think it's time for us to get ready for school. Your alarm has been going off for a long time." I have a whole new level of respect for moms out there with several kiddos. This is hard! Nearly eighteen weeks I spent about ten hours a day in front of a toilet. I'm surprised my kid and my husband are still alive! That's eighteen weeks that pretty much- if Mikey wasn't cooking, we were ordering take out. So, yeah, we ate a lot of Chinese.
I'd never been late taking Ry to school until I got pregnant. And I swear, the lady in the front office gave me the strangest look when she read my note that said, "Please excuse Ry for being late this morning, his pregnant step-mama was very morning-sick this morning." Ha! I swear she was thinking, "Lady, this is not an excuse!" The point is, everything seems to be a little bit more difficult now- but especially parenting. My energy is gone, my patience is gone, and my give-a-damn is WAY gone.
2. Sometimes the little things will seem SO big.
A few weeks ago, I cried literal tears when my husband forgot to ask for an extra order of tater tots at the Sonic drive-thru. And when he found out his work schedule would shift to nights for a few months, I bawled because I'd have to sleep alone. Now I would have to rub MY OWN belly balm on my stomach before bed at night. You think you understand that your hormones will be raging while pregnant, but you have no idea! Not until you're pregnant and screaming at the entire family because the bathroom light was left on again.
3. Everything will be a little more difficult now.
You'd think I just ran a marathon by the way I pant every time I'm climbing a flight of stairs, no joke. Michael joked that on a hike we did last weekend, he kept looking over at me thinking my next breath would be my last. Ha! Things I never would have dreamed would be difficult are now troubling me every day; from putting my shoes on, to rolling out of bed- and it just keeps getting worse.
4. Prepare to be scared. About everything. All. The. Time.
Every time I get in the car, I'm afraid of getting into an accident. I'm scared to fall down the stairs or slip on my icy front steps. I hold my breath in fear every time it takes my midwife more than a few seconds to find my baby's heartbeat with the fetal monitor. I cried for hours when I was told I'd need to be sent to the maternal fetal specialist to monitor a small placental lake- despite how much my midwife assured me that it was likely nothing to worry about (and it totally wasn't.) And when I was told my baby had a little extra fluid in her kidneys at our last ultrasound, I spent days on Google and in forums on BabyCenter reading up on what this could possibly mean! I'm freaked out all the time, and I really thought raising a boy had prepared me for this. But nothing could have prepared me for pregnancy scared.
5. You will be so in love.
Hot damn, do I love this baby girl! I spend so many hours a day dreaming of the incredible person she'll be. Nothing makes me happier than feeling every kick, and planning her arrival. I truly never knew how fulfilling motherhood could be, or just how much you could love a person you've never even met yet! It's the absolute best thing!
6. It's not all s#!% and sunshine.
I feel like the world is really good about conveying how beautiful pregnancy is and what an amazing experience it is to grow a human inside of you. But there's a lot less out there on how to prepare you for all other crap that comes along with being pregnant. Sometimes morning sickness is really all-day-sickness. Sometimes the sickness never ends. Water could literally give me heartburn. My gums are bleeding, my belly is always itchy, and my boobs have been sore since week six. Sure, my skin is glowing, my hair is as abundant as ever, and I'm basically a magical goddess creating life- but I feel more like a tipped cow than anything else.
7. Take everyone's advice/opinions with a grain of salt.
Everyone who's ever had a baby seems to think they know EVERYTHING about having a baby. And once you announce your pregnancy- the unwarranted advice begins. I've been told so many pieces of contradicting advice from so many different people- all who swore it was "the only way." I've heard that my heartburn meant I was having a boy. I've also heard that it meant I was having a girl. Moms have been very keen on chiming in on exactly what I NEED for pregnancy/birth/motherhood, but in reality, most of them can only speak to their own experiences. Every pregnancy and birth is different, and that means what went one way for one mom, could go the exact opposite way for another. I now take every piece of advice/opinion with a grain of salt and don't get worked up if someone says something won't work for me. Because at the end of the day, I'm the only one who can figure that out.
8. Your body will do some funky stuff.
My husband chuckles at me every time I sneeze now, already anticipating that I have PEED MY PANTS. Cuz yeah, that happens now. My nipples, which were once small, round, and symmetrical- are now oblong and roughly the size of personal pan pizzas. My mouth tastes like a penny, I got my first stretch marks last week, and oh yeah, and I've ripped about five skin tags off of my face and neck since conceiving. So that's cute.
It's not for the faint of heart, that's for sure. But I guess something's gotta prep you for all the craziness that is motherhood. It's tough at times, but so beautiful, and I wouldn't trade it for anything!
Have more to add to the list, or a funny pregnancy story to share? Leave a comment below! I'd love to hear!